October is not even half way over and it’s already a whirlwind! For me at least. It’s a beautiful time of year though and I’m enjoying it more than I thought I would. That’s a big deal for an October-hater like me. ;) Just kidding (kind of).

I kind of just threw myself into the working world this week. I’m really happy about it because I’ve had too many months having too much time on my hands. Now the time that I have off is the sweetest gift.

Today, a few years ago, my grandma passed away. Tomorrow will be the anniversary of my grandfather’s death. Later on this week will be my Aunt Linda’s birthday which will just be happy and sad and heavy all at once. These are some of the reasons why October is hard, but every year it gets a little better. I’m thankful for my family and my friends, as well as beautiful solitude. Life is really beautiful even if sometimes it feels awful.

I hope you are all having a nice Sunday, and I hope the fall weather is lovely wherever you are. :)

xoxo

For me, October is a lot of things. It’s rough. It is a time of maybe too much introspection. You know those memories that are so strong you can smell them and taste them? I have a lot of them every October.

It’s a beautiful month though and I hope that I learn to love it.

(photo source)

Today I am at home feeling under the weather. It’s super lame, but I think getting extra rest will be great. This also gives me time to crochet up a storm – a storm that is Earl Grey Shop! My goal was to open it today. Gotta reschedule.

Happy October, friends. May it truly be a happy month. :)

Today is my first day off in a really long time. I have been waiting for a day to just get my life together a little, you know? My new bedroom is still crazy. I have so many wonderful plans for it but I just need time to move all of the boxes around and get organized. Then there’s my etsy shop. I am seriously so excited to be opening it up again! Autumn has got me back in that crochet mood and I couldn’t be happier. It’s almost a form of meditation. Right now, I am waiting for some supplies to arrive in the mail, so my plans of opening the shop by October 1st might not work out. We’ll see.

1. Copper. I looovvee him! How could you not love that face? I don’t know if I mentioned it already, but a couple of weeks ago I came home to find him caught between two fences by his neck. One fence was rooted into the ground, so I couldn’t get him out. He was gasping for air, and I didn’t know how long he had been stuck since my mom and I had both been at work all day. To say that I went crazy would be an understatement. I was out of my mind and screamed a lot, which is kind of embarrassing now. But I felt pretty helpless. Finally, the neighbors (who looked at me like I was crazy when I came knocking on their door) helped me get him out. Then they brought me cake. I was a mess. Since then, I have been extremely overprotective of Copper, always checking in with my mom to make sure he is okay. For the next few days, I had flashbacks that would distract me from work a lot, but they’ve mostly gone away.

2. I normally do not like pumpkin spice lattes, but I ordered one the other day because I felt like I had to. And I had a free coupon thing. It was probably the only PSL I will have this season, but I’d love to try a pumpkin spice coffee recipe like this one. :)

3. Starting October 1st, I will be taking the train to work regularly. It’s expensive, man. But not as expensive as driving to and from work. And I’ll get to enjoy views like this all the time!

4. Lastly, I started my second job at Paper Source last week! I’m loving both of my jobs a lot, and I feel like I’m where I’m supposed to be. It’s comforting to finally feel that way. :)

Right now I’m feeling like Pinterest cliche, under my multicolored crocheted afghan with a cup of hot earl grey tea. The room smells like pumpkin souffle (best fall candle ever), and I’m about to watch the new Parks and Rec. I’ll embrace that cliche though because I’m just so dang happy it’s Friday.

Have a good weekend!!

I’m pretty sure I forgot to post what my summer goals were. My list was something like “work on my shop, wear a romper…” There was probably something about exercising in there. Anyway, I don’t have specific autumn goals, but I want to work on redefining the season for myself.

Autumn reminds of a lot of good things: my birthday parties growing up, my grandma’s old house/my favorite place in the world, staying home from school when I was sick (because it was cozy, not because I was sick), pumpkin flavors and sweaters (obvs), Christmas tree lightings, my dad dressing up as Santa for community events (he still does), times when my Aunt Linda was here… All of these things are really good memories. But it’s a bittersweet season. It reminds me of unfortunate things: Losing people I love, being heartbroken a couple times, having the urge to cut my bangs myself and then ending up with horrible hair for a year… :)

I remember last year, I just wanted to fast forward through autumn and get to summer already. This time, I’m going to try to take in all of the memories, good and bad, even if it hurts sometimes. I just want to be present. And I want to build new memories that will later become the things I think of when I smell rain or eat something pumpkin flavored.

So there you have it. I’m an emotional girl and autumn makes me crazy. But I love it. I’ll be blogging about autumn lots to hold myself accountable about making the best of it.

I hope you are all having a nice Sunday!